| | so, i succumb to peer pressure. i've had this account for a while, but who really has time to build up readerships on both sites?? | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment   |
| i really am trying to convince myself that i like my job. I don't. I don't like organizing someone else's life, i don't like staring at a computer screen all day, printing out and stapling emails.
the fact of the matter is, i feel as though i get paid too much to sit here and do nothing. but its alright. this is me sticking my butt in the door so i get to move to publishing when they have an opening.
and, as much as i dislike that i don't do anything challenging, i must say i do like the hour lunch break, as well as the location (madison square garden), not to mention the fact that they bring food to the kitchen right near the desk i work at in the executive offices area. :-p i mean fresh fruit, including pineapple...yumm, as well as bagels and today, mini donuts! ack! i was in heaven. there is a full supply of soda and chips, also very cool, and water. great.
tomorrow is a conference and i'm pretty excited. if i get enough sleep i stand a chance of not falling asleep.
going to PA right before school--annoying
the fact that i get to spend that time with the new exec of IV as well as the fact that my oh so cool staff worker is coming to my house to pick me up, going COMPLETELY out of her way?--priceless. :-d | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i love jeff and bart, and rach. we had such a good time tonight talking and mainly laughing to the point of exhaustion. i definitely had a good time with them tonight.
aww, shucks, i have a semi new crush. now fall is complete. you know how you have like, a crush during fall, because its the beginning of the school year? well, now i have one, and i think its partially because the sky was so blue and the air was so crisp this morning. this guy is so adorable, he's great. but he's a frosh and a year younger than me...w/e. not like i was going to act on it, seeing as i'm still fully in love with my person.
tonight bible study was beyond amazing. and rachel and i got to talk some more after that. craziness. we never hang out and then we hang out in huge blocks of time. we were together from 9:25 pm to 1:50 am, and didn't even realize it. it was really really funny.
how do you fall off a freaking chair laughing?? that was definitely me tonight. this day was all too good to be true. everything happened, everything worked together for good. just like the word of God promises.
alright i need to hit the sack. i'm so glad i don't have to wake up until nine tomorrow. :-D | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | U2, Best of 1990-2000 | | Subject: | everything i hate | | Time: | 06:57 pm | | Current Mood: |  pissed off |
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| i am imperfect and i hate that. i hate that everyone assumes that i am oh so holy...because i'm not!! i'm not holy, and i wish i were. i'm not perfect, and i wish i were. and because all these people think i'm holy or whatever, i earnestly try to be, as if the fact that they are imperfect would make them not like me or something. its a vicious cycle.
i miss home and i'm growing up and i'm tired of talking about both...but for some reason those are the only things that matter in my mind. everything has become so important that nothing is important anymore. i dislike collegeville...i need to be away from here.
i hate the fact that i am in love and that person is not in love with me. it bothers me so much. i just want to be over him already...and the feelings just grow and grow and so i hurt and hurt because of course mr. guy doesn't return my feelings. i hurt so much, ppl. so much. and there are so many guys i could like right now...guys i'm attracted to, that i feel comfortable around, that i can talk to for long periods of time w/o getting bored...but none of them are him. and that bothers me. what's worse is that i can't talk to anyone honestly, besides joy, nay, and rach. i just don't feel as though i can trust anyone else. i mean, jamie knows how much i love him, and she went and asked the minister he works with whether or not the guy and i would be good together. so i don't feel as though i can be as honest with her. my roommate is good friends with the guy...my two other friends would torture me about marrying him/why don't i tell him that i am in love with him. they just don't see that God doesn't want me to be with him right now...and i know that. i know that i need to realize that i don't *need* the person, but that the only one i need is the Lord. i need to grow so so so much before i could ever be in a relationship. i'm just hurt because said person has long since moved on, and i'm stuck in the mud, my wheels continuously spinning, but in reality i'm not moving anywhere. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| tonight was funny...rachel and i had nothing to do, so we hung out with dtdanger and brandon. tiggy went home, and i missed him.
not much to say tonight... | | comments: Leave a comment |
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